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[Nov 12, 2008 ; 3:05pm] |
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everytime i think that i can finally move on, you always do this.
AH. i was doing REALLY good this time, too. don't give in now.
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| hiiiii. i'm still alive. |
[Nov 9, 2008 ; 11:14pm] |
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so tina has been yelling at me to write in here, and its been quiteee a while, so i figured i probably should.
i graduated school october 21. finallllllly! :] its awesome. i work at gullos in medford right now. if they don't give me more hours soon, maybe not much longer. they're really making me mad. they promised me full time right outta school. so we'll see how that goes. but it feels GREAT to be done school. i just had my exit interview the other day, so the school sent all my stuff to the state. now i'm waiting to get my testing date for my state boards :]
so me and sean had gotten back together since the last time i wrote. and were actually still together until a couple weeks ago. but we are completely 100% over now. trying to talk to his ex behind my back. then trying to fuck her sister. real cute. waste of fucking time. serious waste of 2 years. i can't believe i thought i was going to marry that kid. zlskjcalksjl AH.
anyway. other than all of that, life has been pretty spectacular. i spend pretty much every weekend with tina & all of our friends and i love them all. i went out with lindsay like all last week and had an awesome time with her. i spent the weekend at drexel with chelsi and it was amazing! i love the college life, i kinda wish i did it. hahah. and i went to my first frat party last night. pretty exciting. i can't waiiiiit to go back.
i've met a few guys lately. i'm so not ready for a relationship right now though. i'm totally enjoying the single life. its been a long time. so whatever happens, happens. i'm happy spending all my time with my friends & meeting new people and just living life right now.
AND I WILL BE 21 IN ONE MONTH! AH. i'm soooooo excited. i really want to go to ac buttttt idkkk.
okay, i really need to go to sleep. its been a long weekend. <3
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[Jun 17, 2008 ; 5:17pm] |
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so today was my first day on the clinic! we just did demo/busines stuff today. i'll get my first client tomorrow! i'm so excited/nervous.
my 3 day weekend was ridiculous/awesome/drunk/fun/confusing/sleepless. such a good weekend. minus me getting fired on sunday for texting and fighting with my manager. sweeeet.
went to the beach with tina and sam yesterday. and it took us 4 hours to get home we got so incredibly lost. it was fun though. beach trips every mondayyy. :]
i went to bernards today, the salon i want to work at. i sat down and spoke with the manager. she was super nice and seemed to like me. she said they had just hired someone, she'd only been working 2 days. but she'll def. give me a call if something opens up. and shes also going to call the cherry hill salon to see if they need anyone. i want to work there so bad. skdhgasd
i also went to champps sunday. they had just had a class, having another in 2 weeks. said they'd call. i just want a salon job i think.
as of right now me and sean aren't even talking. i love him, always will. but i just can't deal with it at ALL anymore. he makes me crazy and some of the shit he says is completely uncalled for and def. crosses the line. i can't take it. so i guess we'll see.
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| talking of michaelangelo. |
[May 15, 2008 ; 5:08pm] |
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so i never update anymore. figured i might as well.
school is going great. we're already doing color and we're on the clinic in a month! i'm so excited. i can't believe i'm almost half way done already. its awesome. we went to ny for the IBS show (international beauty show) like 2 weeks ago. it was my first time in new york so i loved it. it was really cool though. and me, jen, britt, erinne, and des went to canal street and got some stuff.
work is pretty good too. i'm still working at macaroni grill. i make pretty decent money and everyone there is really cool. its probably my favorite job i've ever had.
most of my weekends are spent with tina and everyone and i absolutely love it more than anything. except last weekend so i'm kinda going through some tina withdrawl right now. but i love her and all her friends to death. and i don't know what i'd do without them.
and i don't see casey nearly enough as i need to. considering we spent EVERY day together for like 4 months before i started school. so me and her need to find some more time together.
me and sean are still kinda...i don't know. whatever we have been. we're still best friends and we're still in love. i sleep at his house usually 2-3 nights a week. but i don't wanna get back with him. atleast not yet. he needs to grow up and get his shit together more before i do get back with him. our puppy is huge. shes almost 50 pounds and 7 months already. she's so cute though. shes my little babyyyy. <3
so everything in my life is going pretty well as of right now. minus the $600 i owe in fines and what i'm gonna owe for doctors appointments. if anyone knows how i can get rich, please let me know. because that would be very helpful. hahah.
buttt i have to go work on my portfolio for school because its due in a few weeks and i'm not even half way done yet. so i need to get on that.
maybe i'll update again sooner than 3 months.
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[Mar 19, 2008 ; 10:52pm] |
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driving me to fucking drink.
"i don't want to date you."
5 hours later, "maybe i'll date you again."
this is like every other day. you're making me crazy. you need to make up your mindddddddd. laskfjhashfkhsaf. i love you/i hate you. come over/leave me alone. give me my space/why aren't you talking to me. pick one or the otherrrrrrrr.
i love you more than anything in this god damn world but i'm beginning to lose my mind & i don't know what to think ever. you're confusing the fuck outta me.
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[Feb 28, 2008 ; 7:35am] |
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yesterday was such a good day :] you haven't made me that happy in a while. it was nice.
i still have no idea what's going on. but, "wifey?" true. that was cute. i love you so incredibly much.
hopefully things are looking up. i'm reallllly hoping they are.
school is awesome. and i love it more everydayyyyy. so much hands on stuff lately. blow drying today. cutting in like 2 weeks. sweeeeet. getting my hair cut and colored saturday if i don't have workkkk!
work at the macaroni grill is ridiculous. i have a week to memorize intirely too much shit. and i hope that i can do it. champps also called me back for a job, and carrabbas. champps would be a sweet place to work.
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[Feb 17, 2008 ; 9:20pm] |
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it's strange to think the songs we used to sing
the smiles, the flowers, everything, is gone.
yesterday i found out about you
even now just looking at you, feels wrong.
you say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
it was a moment of weakness and you said yes.
you should've said no, you should've gone home.
you should've thought twice before you let it all go.
you should've know that word, bout what you did with her
would get back to me.
& i should've been there, in the back of your mind
i shouldn't be asking myself why
you shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet.
you should've said no, baby and you might still have me.
you can see that iv've been crying
and baby you know all the right things to say
but do you honestly expect me to believe
we could ever be the same?
you say that the past is the past, you need one chance
it was a moment of weakness and you said yes.
i can't resist. before you go, tell me this,
was it worth it?
was she worth this?
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[Feb 17, 2008 ; 9:06am] |
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slept at seans thursday, friday, and saturday. he got me a rose, candy, and a realllly cute card for vday. :] i don't know if i wanna be with him though. i mean i want to, but i don't know if i can. askl;djfklj. friday night lianna, jay, and amanda came over. and dave and nicole for a little bit. got really drunk. saturday me & sean layed around all day and watched the entire series of the kill point. from like 2 until 10. it was pretty good. then we cuddled and fell asleep at like ten. askljdkljad.
so i just got home and my moms like "where were you all weekend?" i'm like uh seans. you know that. and she's trying to tell me that i'm not allowed to sleep out. ever. like not even on weekends. i'm like seriously i'm 20 years old. i can sleep out. i lived on my own for over a year. you aren't gonna tell me that i can't sleep out. and she said "if you wanna come and go when you please you better find somewhere else to live." cool. thanks for nothing mom. don't open your fucking door to me if you're gonna be unwelcoming. she's done nothing but bitch and fight with me since i've been here. i'm hoping my dad will get me & him a place again. becauseeeee i'm clearly not staying here much longer.
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| i'm into nuggets yall. |
[Feb 12, 2008 ; 7:38am] |
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so friday night i went out with tinaaaa :] lots of fun. it was her friend melissas bday party thingy. tons of people. i love tina. shes my favorite. woke up saturday for the 10th time and finally left. went to a diner for breakfast. we won't talk about that. hahahah. uuuuum. then i discovered that casey had me sick and i was dying.
went to seans after around 2. laid around there all day and napped with him. went bowling for a little. and he slept at jons so i went home to rest since i needed it. slept and was sick all day sunday. then slept at seans sunday night.
scchoool is awesome. and i love it more everydayyyyy :]
started the next bowling league last night. my average is a 148. it was a 126 before. woooow. let's see if i can keep this up. haha. i bowled my first 200, a 212 sunday night :] yey me! thhhhen slept at seans again last night cause he wanted me to. i thinkkk things are going to be okay eventually. they're looking up.
thursday i think we're just doing cards and hanging out. then i'm going to bowling with him and we're having a sleepover. we're gonna do the whole out to dinner thing friday since we really don't have time thursday. so we're celebrating vday a little late. but whatttttev. lovehimsomuch.<3
now all i need to do is find a job and i'll be set.
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[Feb 5, 2008 ; 7:38am] |
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so i started school yesterday, and i absolutely loved it! i actually get along with like everyone in my class. which is really cool because i didn't think that i would. we got our kits yesterday. SO much stuff! its a huge duffle bag WAY over packed with stuff. i'm so excited. i can't wait to do hairrrrr. :] yeyey.
after school i went out to dinner with sean & his family. his cousin leaves for the navy today so we had a thing for him. then i slept over his house. and my mom flipped out. uh OKAY. i lived there for over a year. and now you're gonna get mad if i sleep there sometimes? i don't think so. i'm 20 fucking years old. living here is gonna suck. i feel it already. we're going
"to have a talk" later. whatever.
i have no idea whats going on with me and sean. :\ we are completely in love. but we're still fighting all the the time. so i guess we'll see how this works.
okay. gotta finish getting ready and go to school!
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